You were finally healthy this week. I am pretty sure you have had a cold since we started daycare in December. The germs just circle! But this week, you were sniffle free. I see little changes every day with you, a new skill you picked up or a skill that you have had but seem to have now fine tuned. You want to move, but you can’t figure out how to get those little legs to propel you forward. If I’m being honest I’m not ready for you to crawl, it’s not that I don’t want to chase you around but I’m afraid that once you are on the move my cuddly snuggly babe will be officially gone.
You have mastered some sounds and love to babble to anyone and anything. You are saying mama, dada, baba, nana, gaga, your f sound, and papa. Sometimes I swear you know that I am mama and your dad is dada, you say it while looking right at us, but then other times you just babble away.
I question on a daily basis if I am a good mom. Am I doing enough? Am I feeding your the right foods? Am I giving you enough floor time? Am I holding you enough? Am I protecting you too much? Not enough? The questions in my head can be completely overwhelming, but I try to remember to go with my gut and know that your fed and happy, so I must be doing something right. I hope that when you grow up and have kids of your own (if you choose to) that I can be there to reassure you that you are doing everything just fine.
Sleep seems to be this area of weakness for us. You are still in our room in your bassinet. Your room is downstairs which makes me nervous and with how many times we still get up at night, I’m not ready for all those stairs. You wake up on average 4 times a night, but some nights its 10 times and some nights its 2 times. Everyone has their own thoughts, but for now I’m okay with still nursing on demand and letting you work through it.
It is true what they say, our time together at night during the weeks and on the weekends are more special now because of all the time we spend apart during the week. I thought dropping you off would get easier, but it doesn’t if anything it gets harder because now you know when I leave and 70% of the time you cry. Which breaks my heart every single time. I hate wishing away the days because it means that you my sweet girl get bigger and bigger, but I am so ready for summer vacation with you!
I love you sweet girl, I can’t wait for all of our Spring and Summer adventures.