Dear Eloise // Week 12

Dear Eloise,

You are 12 weeks old, how is that possible? My time home with you has flown and I cry at least once a day about having to go back to work. I love my job but I love you a million times more and going from spending every second of every day with you to being apart for 7-8 hours is going to be difficult for me. We will figure out a new normal I am sure.

We celebrated your first Thanksgiving, we watched the parade with your dad, grandma and grandpa on the couch as I snuggled you. You slept through the entire meal and woke up right as we were done eating. Next year you will get to join in the festivities and eat, trust me you will love it. We drove home from Maine that night and went to your grandpa and grandma Millers house for dessert where you were greeted by all your Miller family. It was a long day out of your normal environment and you fought sleep all night. I put you down 12 times once I thought you were asleep and you woke up every single time, you just wanted to be held, which is always okay by me.

Your dad had some time off and we spent the weekend together doing a little shopping and house projects, you are pretty easy going which makes it easier to go out. We took you to one of our favorite breweries for the first time (Earth Eagle) you slept and woke up for the last 20 minutes we were there, everyone stared at you and commented on how content you were. Your dad and I are pretty lucky.

You have been babbling like crazy lately, especially right before you go to sleep. You get those sleepy eyes and then start babbling- lots of A’s and E’s and O sounds. Watching you find your voice is wonderful, you love when we talk back to you. You love knowing what is going on, facing out and bouncing around the house always calms you right down. You still do not like the pacifier or bottle, but you love to suck on your hands or one of our fingers. Your smile lights up the room, especially when we get you to break into an ear to ear grin.

There has been and will be quite a bit of change happening over the next couple weeks. We will take it day by day and try to make the best of it. If there is one thing I have learned as a mother so far it is that before you came my choices and decisions only impacted myself (and sometimes your dad) but now they impact you. Change is hard and always will be, but when I know the change will end up being the best for you, it makes it a little easier. You are everything to your dad and I, which means I will do whatever I need to, to make sure you have the best life possible. One of my favorite quotes is: “The most important work you will ever do will be inside the four walls of your home”. This could not be more true.

I love you sweet girl.

Love always,
Your mama

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