There are days where you question everything.
There are days when you feel confused and lost.
There are days where you feel like you have not accomplished anything.
There are days when you feel like you don’t know who you are or what you want.
There are days when you feel on top of the world.
There are days when you feel like your words matter.
There are days when you know you were meant to do something.
There are days when you know exactly who you are and what you want.
Most days? Well most days tend to be a mix of the two.
Yesterday Aaron and I had a much needed long talk over coffee. I expressed how I felt like I have not accomplished anything. Sure I have my undergraduate degree and I am almost done getting my masters in occupational therapy, but in my mind I feel like everyone has a masters. What sets me apart? Nothing.
Aaron sat there telling me how wrong I was. That I have accomplished something and that I can’t sit back and compare myself to what other people have accomplished by my age. I can’t compare myself because everybody’s circumstances are different.
I nodded in agreement half heartedly believing what he was saying, but trying to convince myself it was true. I know he is right, but sometimes we have such a hard time believing the truth (or maybe just I do). After coffee we headed back to the car to drive home, as I drove I tried to think about why I was feeling this way and if I should be feeling a different way. I think I sit here and read so many blogs and stories sometimes of everyone accomplishing so much that I start thinking I should be doing more. But as we were driving I realized that right now at this phase in life we are doing pretty well and we are working towards bigger dreams. It is all about the baby steps and baby accomplishments lead to bigger ones. So I am okay with what I have accomplished so far, and pretty proud. I am the first in my family to earn my bachelors degree and the first to get a masters, I’d say that is a pretty good accomplishment.
Do you ever get the feeling you should be doing more? Accomplishing more?