I was thinking a lot today about what exactly it means to be an ‘adult’? I finally settled on the fact that it is an accumulation of different things. Being 22, turning 23 shortly is such an awkward age, I feel very in between and I have a hard time considering myself an adult, but the more I thought the more I realized I am an adult…cue panic attack. Knowing and accepting that I am indeed an adult is scary, but also exciting. I read somewhere the other day the growing older is not something to fear, but rather something that should be celebrated, and that we are lucky to be getting older, many are not so lucky…
As I thought about what being an adult means, it made me a little sad, I miss being a curly haired little girl who could run to mom and dad whenever I needed them…I miss the nights of coming home from school and having nothing to worry about other than homework. Living on my own and being a’ kind-of-adult’, there is much MUCH more responsibility. I, not my parents am the one that cooks, cleans, grocery shops, pays the bills, and makes time for school. It has certainly been an adjustment year for Aaron and I as we have gotten used to living together and making a life together, we have learned and continue to learn how to balance school, family, friends, and life in general. We have had high highs, and low lows, but I would not trade anything to be in a different situation. Yes, being on our own, and stepping into adulthood has been scary, but the more I think about it, the more I realize that I have been slowly entering adulthood for years, and that it comes with more and more excitement and experiences every day. Of course I still run to my mom and dad with certain problems, I don’t think that will ever change, but Aaron and I have built quite a life on our own in this big city! I can’t wait for our next chapter, as a married couple, I am sure it will be filled with amazing moments and opportunities (just over 6 months now!).
Sometimes I agree with Meredith Grey, I wish I could revert to being a kid occasionaly, but my journey has just begun, and each day is a new adventure that I wouldn’t trade for the world.
Ever wish you could go back to being a kid, just for a day?